The bed is where she feels safe
where she tightly hugs her pillow;
her only true and trustworthy friend.
Free from the evil thoughts that haunts her
free from everything and anything..
Empty days are frightening.
She wonders why there’s certain things she does to feel safe, when those things doesn’t even make sense at all..
I just saw a rainbow! So pretty!!!
I was in the car when the kids were going home from school. There was a pair of siblings crossing the road with their maids and they were just 10cm away from me. I smiled at them and as they ran pass the road, the little boy said to the little girl ‘that big sister smiled at you!’ in which the little girl replied ‘ya!!’ in a cheerful tone.. (: that kind of made my day.
When I was younger, the world seems to revovle around myself. I had hobbies, I do things which pleases myself, I made myself proud and happy(of myself).
Now that I’ve grown older, I seem to have lost the drive and passion to do things for myself or for others. Making others happy makes me happy which I think is not the same kind of selfish happy happy I get when I was young.
I get inspired and motivated by things I hear and see but it only lasts for a few seconds. It is really really hard to get down to do something when this drive is so temporary. Things like drawing a picture, reading a book, doing a new layout, cleaning my room, trying a new recipe, writing a blog entry… always gets replaced by sitting in front of the computer watching some unconstructive videos or reading blogs. Everything feels like something I’m obliged to do, even though sometimes it’s just what I really want to do for myself and not some schoolwork or such.
Things happen when a hobby becomes work.
Getting down to write this demands large amount of effort from me! :p
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On a brighter note, I finally baked pumpkins today with the skins on!
baked pumpkins with skin on
WOAH. I was totally amazed how how soft the pumpkins turned out. It is like.. softer than mashed potatoes! Plus I totally didn’t expect the skin to become soft too. x_x
First taste was tasteless, though it was really warm and mashy. I was disappointed.. mixing it into yoghurt didn’t work too. It tasted sort of stringy in the yoghurt. However, I tried mixing it with cinnamon and it was so aweeeeesome! :D
pumpkin yoghurt
why is it that during rainy days, echos seems to be louder?
I was walking around outside just now when I realised how busy Singaporeans are, even on a Saturday evening. I felt weird. People are preparing for exams, rushing through meals, in a rush to go home… while I have nothing in my agenda(okay, not exactly, but it could be pushed to Monday. SHH!).
Whenever holidays rolls around, I just felt like slacking everyday, wasting my life in front of the computer.. all plans I’ve made in my head during the busy school days all vanish into thin air~ T~T
So I’ve decided! I shall note down what I want to do this holidays! (in no particular order)
1. draw more!
2. borrow books! on drawing/painting or just plain novels.
3. drink more water!!!!
4. get that toy..
5. bakebakebake!
6. jot down my thoughts here
7. dress up? try? less kok?
/edit/ okay i just found out that my 5 days long holiday is not exactly a holiday…
Hello!
It’s a peaceful Thursday afternoon and I’m sitting in the living room hugging my pillow, with mummy sitting on the IKEA wooden chair watching some Cantonese speaking show. I like how the sun shines in during the afternoon and evenings.
I cleared my journal and my part for a group project early this morning. I woke up at 5 and had the first jam and cheese toast in my life. It was really interesting with a tasty contrast between sweet and salty.
The rest of the day till now was spent blog hopping and having home cooked food.
I have been drinking more water lately, I’m really happy.
I want to read more. Something that’s not a factual account of some medical illness. I think I’ve outgrown that already..
It has been quite sometime already, but I think I should start reflecting more on myself as a person and focus on much more important things in life other than superficial lame food entries. My blog is like an escape from reality and it feels like what’s being blogged isn’t written by me.
I am so silly.
I am procrastinating! My blog is so stagnant nowadays. ):
2009 has not been a good year for me so far. Especially school wise..
Everyday I’m facing technical errors, printing errors, forgetting to bring things, missing buses.. and i fell down twice this year(so far), once on a bicycle, once into the drain.
I’m thankful that today wraps up a module.. really ran all over the place trying to put everything together..
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Bad things aside, here are some pictures from Chinese new year. (:
glutinious rice balls.. a symbol of renuion..
‘jelly’ fishes.. represents that there’ll be good things every year. ‘nian nian you yu’.
i think i’m starting to take interest in photography..
stupid thoughts?
christmas day was spent with these lovely people..
(: thanks for the company!
Last weekend, b and i went to the new Ehub @ Downtown East to explore. I really like the place because it’s quite spacious and it’s really colourful, especial the toilet with colourful doors and sinks..
It has eateries, supermarket, a bowling centre, cinema, arcade, kbox was well as other random shops..
I thought the chairs looked pretty cute from above.. it’s actually a small cafe.. not sure if it’s good though, it isn’t open then.
A lovely ferris wheel! Ferris wheels always looked so surreal to me, very unreal. Aha~
We settled for lunch at this place called BBQ Chicken which originated from Korea.. that’s what they claim la. Plus they use 100$ extra virgin olive oil for their food..!
The place was quite empty the time we went, and they have this student price at that timing, includes a main and drink @ $7.90 without all the added $$..
It’s a nice cosy place to gather and chit chat, I love their huge pink sofas~
I had the Jerk BBQ, which unexpectedly turned out to be the best BBQ chicken I’ve ever tasted!~ The meat is so moist and tasty.. The fries were the kind that I like, thick and straight-cut, and it came in a generous portion.. Ahaha it’s funny when b ordered it, saying “I want a BBQ-ed Jerk”. I am so craving for it now..
b’s fried chicken(what else haha!) Wrong choice! Make sure you eat the BBQ-ed dished when you come here.. aha~
His comment was that “It’s the healthiest fried chicken I’ve ever tasted..” and he did stole bites from my meal, because it’s sooooo much better. :p
Ending off with happy satisfied people after an enjoyable meal..
Do you feel that sometimes when you’re doing something, it only feels fun afterward when you look back at it, but not that fun when you’re actually doing it?
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Past week was spent working at night, late suppers, runing and swimming.
Thanks baby dear dear for sending me home everytime even though you live so far away and have to endure the boring ride. Sometimes thinking of you reaching home so late and piggy you not getting enough sleep makes me feel bad. Not forgetting that you have to go off the moment you reach my doorstep to catch the last train, thus we don’t have time to sit down and chat like last year.. D:
